most certainly is a bitch. I've realized that although he may not be perfect in every aspect, the parts of him that are imperfect make me love him even more. He is my everything. I love him with my whole being. Just laying in bed with him can make all of my troubles and worries melt away....at least temporarily.
I've also realized that the people whom I have made a priority in my life do not necessarily do the same for me. Which truly sucks because I had hoped we would never have to go down this road again. Once was enough for me and I'm not sure I'm willing or ready to do it again. This will take some serious contemplation on my part.
Once again my mother has been there for me even with the utmost blunt comments. I love her and appreciate her very much for this. She always is there to offer the so called "outsider" perspective on my life. "PT" should be very thankful for her. I feel that without her I could have and most likely would have called it quits long ago and not have been so fortunate to find out how truly amazing he really is.
So in conclusion, I'm not really sure where I'm at in life. I do know however a life changing makeover could be in the works in the near future. Scary and exciting all at the same time. We'll see.
