Another year...come and gone

As my birthday approaches...yet again, I have been doing some major relflecting on everything that has occured in my life for the past year. I have realized that I am much stronger emotionally than I ever gave myself credit for. I have gone through so many changes all of which I have been able to find the silver lining in.

Its crazy to think that my birthday last year, Preston and I weren't sure if we were right for each other, or if we could make it past all the hurtful things we had done/said to each other. But now we are both so very aware of how lucky we were to have found each other that very odd night back in April of 2009. We really have become so much closer through all of our struggles, and we both have been able to help each other with whatever the other one has come across. Preston is my rock and my shoulder to cry on, he is my other half, and he is the love of my life. I cannot wait to see what this crazy thing called life has in store for us next. All I know is that it will make us stronger both as individuals and as a couple.

Back in April of this year, I got a DUI and I disappointed a lot of people that are close to me and that support me. I lost my license until I turn 21 and I am on probation until December of this year. This was one of the major changes in my life that has helped me to become more positive and always look on the bright side. I learned who will really always be there for me and support me even when I make a mistake. Preston, my family, and the Cook's I thank you for all that you have done for me and all the support that you have shown me these last few months. I also learned that a lot of people who claimed to be my friend....really were just fake, toxic people who I no longer needed in my life. Although losing one of those people made me sad temporarily, I have come to the conclusion that she was never really my friend....I was a friend to her and I was there when she needed me, but the feeling was not mutual. Another silver lining to this incident was that I got to start working full time at the golf course...and next season will more than likely become manager :)

As my birthday comes ever closer...I have bitter sweet feelings. Part of me wants to go back in time so that I can still be a teenager....then reality sets in and I realize that I am one of the luckiest people on the planet. I have the love and support of an amazing man. My family is always there for me through thick and thin. I am finally becoming the person I always wanted to be...with a few minor bumps in the road along the way. With my new attitude and perspective on life though, those bumps in the road will only make me stronger in the long run.

xo